Getting to fine

I have a million thoughts in my mind, but not really sure what any of them are. Please pray for Mike and I. This is obviously not a situation we ever wanted to find ourselves in. We don't want to be here, and we don't want to do this! We have no doubt that Carter is going to be fine, but we want to get to fine. Getting him to fine is going to be the hard part. Even if all they have to do is surgery, we still don't want our baby to have surgery. The doctors think his tumor is neuroblastoma. I'm not sure what that is exactly, basically it has something to do with his nervous system and the cells tend to cluster together. This is the best kind of tumor to have so we are praying that that's what it is. To be honest I am having a hard time being hopeful. We were very hopeful that it was just a cyst and now its hard to be positive about anything else.

Carter has been a very happy boy today. It is so wonderful to see him smile. On Wednesday (just one day before we found out he had a mass) I was at a bible study and I had mentioned how I often forget to thank God for the miracle of my children, and how I am so thankful they are healthy because there are so many sick kids. I feel its really ironic that I mentioned that while my son had a tumor growing in his body. Also at that bible study we had prayed for a friend that has breast cancer, someone mentioned that we often look for big miracles but we miss the little ones. Obviously one big miracle would be for the tumor to just disappear or for it to be nothing serious, however there have already been miracles I would like to share with you.
Miracle #1: On Friday I couldn't feed Carter until after the CT scan, and he was a very good boy! He was so wonderful all day and I couldn't have asked for a better baby.
Miracle #2: We got to St. Louis in good time and with no problems.
Miracle #3: Evan is staying at my aunt's house and is having such a great time. Praise the Lord for a wonderful family. Evan can be difficult sometimes, but he is adapting very well.
Miracle #4: They let us leave the hospital. Mike and I can not tell you how glad we are we got to come to my grandmas. Its so much easier to be here than at a hospital.
When things like this happen you tend to view life a little differently. We are trying to figure out how God wants to use us during all of this.

Please pray for: good rest tonight, many answers to all our questions at the hospital tomorrow, Evan to not miss his mommy and daddy, healing for our baby, and lots of peace.
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