Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Good news!!

As the title says we got good news at Carter's appointment yesterday, however we need your prayers. His scan was clear for any signs of a tumor. YEAH!!!! Praise the Lord. I debated on posting the next part or not but I feel we really need every ones prayers. When the doctor came into to tell us the results of the scan she also did an exam on Carter, just normal stuff. He was sitting on my lap and when she got to the lymph nodes under his left arm she asked me to lay him on the exam table. Then she kept feeling around under that arm, after what felt like an eternity I told her she was scaring me and asked what she was doing. She explained that she felt a bump, but it wasn't what a normal swollen lymph node or tumor would feel like and she thought it was just his muscle but she wanted to make sure, that's why she kept pressing around on it. Then she said we could do an ultrasound to make sure it was nothing. At that point I just wanted to fall down on the floor and start screaming. I just kept thinking "I knew it, I just knew it was going to come back." (I know, I know, I am such an optimistic positive person, ha ha NOT) Then she said "Oh wait, I know the CT scan when up to his neck so I will just go back and look at the scan and talk to the radiologist." So after a few minutes she comes back to tell us it was nothing, there was nothing on the scan and the radiologist didn't see anything abnormal either. I did feel a little relieved, but still very scared. In the back of my mind I keep thinking it is nothing now, but it might be next time. So, that's why I posted that part so all of you can pray. Please pray for my peace of mind, I just do not feel as relieved as I normally do after these appointments. Also pray for Carter that it really is nothing and we don't find something at his next appointment. He will go back in 3 months, so April and we will do another scan. I really hope I am not a basket case for the next 3 months.
This appointment was thus far the hardest one for me mentally, I'm not sure why but I have just been a mess and maybe that's why I'm having a hard time bouncing back from it.
I did want to let every one know that the test itself went REALLY smooth yesterday. Carter barely cried when they did the IV, it only took one try, he went to the bathroom fairly quickly for the urine test, we didn't have to wait for a long time like usual, and he only whimpered a second during the scan because it startled him when the table started moving :) That in itself is a huge praise. It was by far our best appointment up until the doctor came in.
Thank you all for your prayers.

The following is a song that has become our theme song. The words really speak to me and just remind me that everything we have gone through is going to be OK no matter how it turns out because we have hope and faith in Jesus.

Hope Now by Addison Road

If everything comes down to love
Then just what am I afraid of
When I call out Your name
Something inside awakes in my soul
How quickly I forget I'm Yours

I'm not my own
I've been carried by You
All my life

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
This love sets me free


When my life is like a storm
Rising waters all I want is the shore
You say I'll be ok and
Make it through the rain
You are my shelter from the storm

And everything rides on hope now
And everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
This love sets me free


You've become my hearts desire
I will sing Your praises higher
Cause Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free

I'm not my own
I've been carried by You
All my life

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
This love sets me free


This love sets me free
Your love sets me free
This love sets me free
Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free

11 comments:

Rachel said...

Gina,
I love you dearly and am praying for peace, not just right now, but for the next 3 days, 3 weeks, 3 months, 3 years, 30 years, whatever it takes. I can only imagine the stress/frustration/anger/anxiety/whatever other words you feel on a daily basis - all of which are ok, but that make life crazier!!

Many many hugs headed your way!

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Rachel said...

Sheesh - I posted my comment 3 times and then had to delete the duplicates, sorry about that!

Lori M. said...

Sometimes it's hard to give it to the Lord and just leave it there but try really, really hard. Don't let the anxiety keep you from relaxing and enjoying the next few months with your kids...at which time we'll plan on you continuing to enjoy time with them after Carter's next appointment!

Deqlan said...

Hello Gina, so thrilled to hear the great news, but know how you feel about the worry, just continue to put your faith in Our Lord that there is nothing there and this will continue always. Just trust, trust trust! God Bless, prayers always Mark Samm Deqlan Logan

Anonymous said...

Gina,
Jesus asked who of us could add one cubit to our stature by giving thought.Worry does nothing. Worry looks back and faith looks up. God wants His best for you.

Tessa said...

hello just found your blog, he is so beautiful, i am praying for your family. i used to live in bolivar!

Deqlan said...

Hi Gina - just checking in to say hi and making sure you all ok? Samm
www.deqlanhiggins.blogspot.com

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ermispartyof5 said...

Love your blog! Found your readings very inspiring! It is hard to Let Go Let God! I myself struggle with that.

Come check out our blog! Hopefully we can become blogging friends!!